staying up late just because it's friday night and because i can...

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letters.

so scott is super sweet and likes to leave me letters on my nightstand once in a while. i love how he's so secretive about it and i never know when i'll find one. sometimes, i get one after a fight or argument. i try to pretend like the letter didn't mean anything but man, does he score some big points with the love notes! i treasure these letters because all i ever receive in the real mailbox is junk mail, bills and more junk mail. on occasion, i'll receive an invitation or a save the date but it's rare to get something special. though my letters don't come like in this pretty picture, i welcome all love letters from my wonderful husband. ps...he comes home in 36 hours!!

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one of those questionnaire thingy's...

Attached or Single: i didn't quite get this question, but attached...?

B - Best Friend: scott & priscilla...but so many amazing and special people in my life

C - Cake or Pie: piece of marionberry pie a la mode please!

D - Day of choice: saturday because i love sleeping in...till 9am.

E - Essential Item: lip gloss, lip balm...something for the lips will do

F - Favorite Color: i've loved pink...but i LOVE oceany blues & greens

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: i'm with anna...sour patch kids!

H- Hometown: hacienda heights, california

I - Indulgence(s): shopping...it truly is an addiction of mine.

J - January or July: july in ac...

K - Kids: love 'em.

L - Life is incomplete without: my savior, scott, charlie and my family and friends.

M - june 27th, 2008

N - Number of Siblings: one brother, bobby...2 wang's brothers, 1 sister and 1 more sister in august!!

O - Oranges or Apples: seedless watermelon

P - Phobias or Fears: too many.

Q - Quotes: not good at this question. don't have the memory to quote...:D

R -Reason to smile: charlie's face, scott saying, "ahhhhh ggggiiiiiaaaaa" (this is from the bachelor, if you watched over at our house)

S - Season: fall

T - Tag Three Friends: mm, i have four followers two of which have already filled this out. so dorina :)

U - Unknown fact about me: i did ballet for 6 years from the ages 4-10.

V - Very favorite Store: nordstrom & jcrew

W - Worst habit: ocd tendencies

X - X-ray or Ultrasound: i hope i hope that by the grace of God, we get to see a healthy ultrasound sometime this year!!

Y - Your favorite food: italian, a good steak dinner, creme brulee.

Z- Zodiac: aquarius

i don't get it...

and maybe i never will. but some of the parents that i have to deal with STUN me (and that's an understatement). i went through fall conferences and i swear, sometimes it felt like i was giving a counseling session. some parents asked for advice which is what i did in regards to academics. i gave suggestions on strategies to motivate and help their kiddo grow and learn - bottom line is, i want their kiddo to feel good about themselves and succeed.
other times, i got straight up questions like: "i am at wits end with what to do. help me"...UH, hello. it's YOUR child. shouldn't the parents know better than the teacher...?

i know in my heart that it's not always so black and white. but i'd hope as a parent that you would know how to discipline your kid, for the kid's sake. giving them EVERYTHING their little hearts desire is not the right answer. in my years of working with babies, toddlers, grade school kids...one of the biggest things they NEED are boundaries. i also hope that parents would know their kids 99% better than i would. but i guess that's why i have a big heart for my 23. sometimes i wonder if i'm the only adult in their life that loves them. maybe i'm the only adult that gives them boundaries. maybe i'm the only adult that guides them to make good life choices.

it breaks my heart when my 1st grader tells me:
"my dad doesn't live with us. he didn't want to be with us...he lives so far away...in portland."
"my mom came back! i'm so excited she decided to live with us again."
" i didn't come to school because my mom and dad got into a BIG fight."

i wish sometimes that before becoming a parent you are required by law to take some classes. these babies NEVER asked to be born...it is by our adult choices they enter into this world (and by the grace of God!) so it is our responsibility to give them the best life possible.

thankful

my husband is out of town for eight days...i am enjoying the quietness and the alone time - but don't get me wrong, i miss him like crazy! it's funny how you notice more things you are thankful for when your better half is gone like:

~ making me breakfast every morning. those extra ten minutes of getting ready sure does help!
~ warming up my side of the bed at night. MISS IT.
~ laughing with him. i think he's the only one that can make me laugh till i have tears streaming down my face. (this is a good thing)
~ how he takes care of our house. he is always insisting that i rest or take it easy...he's pretty great.
~ spying on his quiet times. i know these are sacred but i love my man seeking Jesus.

this is a SHORT list of what i am thankful for in my husband. i know traveling is not easy but he is such a hard worker. thank you hunnybear for working so hard for our family...we love you!!

follow friday

i'm doing this a little different. i haven't made my blog super public but the two bloggers that i personally know and follow are olivia and anna's...the reilly sisters! so, here's my little love note for them:

olivia k. carter ~ For Me{via For Me}

she is a beauty!! i met olivia when she was in 5th grade and i was a senior at sunset. i was a high school volunteer and was working in mr. esping's room. i knew right away that olivia was going to be something special and i even remember saying to myself, "i hope i run into her later on in life..." well, God heard my little prayer and we did meet!! i'd say her first love is JESUS. she leads younglife and it was great being on a team, even though it was too short! i know she loves spending time with the Lord and being obedient to His will. olivia has this other PASSION and i mean fire, for organizing - anything! this also means cleaning up after get togethers and i adore her servant like heart. i love that you love: cleaning, unpacking boxes (hehee - thanks for motivating me!), diet coke, the outdoors, pc, good deals and PEACHWAVE!!!!!!!! i am blessed to have you in my life ~

anna l. reilly ~ annaLreilly{via For Me}

i remember seeing anna at sunset's younglife club when it was held in a small little house. she welcomed me and was so adorable and bubbly. then, i'd say we had our bond sealed on our way down to wildhorse canyon (now, WFR). i remember this was a time when she felt abodoned and i felt like God placed her in my life in such a perfect place. it was amazing to watch anna grow through her junior and senior year...her faith is AMAZING and i fell in love with HOW her faithfulness fulfilled her life. she is a go-getter gal and it is always a joy to see whenever i get the chance! you are so beautiful - inside and out.

wants.

one of my FAV designers is rachel ashwell. she turns the old and unwanted into beautiful, stunning pieces. i wish i had an eye for stuff like this and if i could have a theme for a house, it would be: SIMPLY SHABBY CHIC

i'm not cheating on charlie - i swear...

but these pictures sure do put a big smile on my face:{in the picture above, the one on the left looks so much like my charlie bear...}

{what kind of camera do i need to capture these kinds of moments??}

acupuncture - last session

i went to my last session of acupuncture on thursday. he came in and had a smile on his face...then asked me: when did your cycle start...i was confused. maybe he thought i was another patient of his or he was asking about my history again. i had no idea...so i gave him a blank stare. then he looked at me and was shocked i hadn't started especially since i had had four sessions with him already.
so, the next step is to have my appointment with the RE and if the doctor wants me to assist with more acupuncture i will do so, but for now...it's the waiting game until may.
until then, i just need to relax and live stress free...is this possible for me?? maybe if i was here...

dream on.

it's funny how a car dealership will give you a WAY nicer version of your car as a loaner. if they were trying to get me to say "OOH, upgrade!!" then they have succeeded. my car that i love was having some problems so we had to take it in. they gave us a beauty...i swear, the loaner can practically drive itself! so this is the car i have for a day and a half...

scott and i met at woodburn and my love for cooking has me eyeing this pot. the outlet said they would have this color in a few months...i am excited. wouldn't this look good in my dream beach house?!

acupuncture - session 4

my fourth session was pretty much the same as the third. he treated me for my headaches as well and told me that i have some anxiety and too much tension which causes my headaches. he also told me that i don't sleep well (right on!) because i think about things too much and my body doesn't get to fully rest (right on!). he said he has a suspicion that i might have problems with my ovaries but that he would let the reproductive endocrinologist (R. E.) diagnose it. i was amazed at how much he knew by just listening to my pulse.
the next step is to meet a doctor that is just right for us. there are two in the running and i just made my first consultation with one for early may. i am so excited and nervous for it. in talking to my cousin who just had olivia and lucas, she said that you go to this R. E. and once they've helped you conceive and it's safe, you go back to your obgyn to deliver the baby...i assumed that they become your new doctor for everything. so i am glad i get to go back to dr. stewart with good news hopefully!

this weekend, my heart ached for a little one...it's time to pray some more. {via For Me}

acupuncture - session 2

yesterday i was face down on the table and he focused on my lower back and calves/shin area again. one needle that he put directly into my calf was super painful. he asked if i felt it...UH, YEAH!! anyways, i found my second time around i was able to relax much quicker and i ended up taking a nap. then, i woke up and i got real fidgety again. that's when i start to feel like i need to jump up, take out all the needles and say i'm never coming back...fortunately/unfortunately i have another appointment thursday. again, i 'm in for anything...if this helps scott and i start our little family, then doctor...please poke away! next session - thursday.

daydreams...

not that i don't love my kitchen right now...but it's always fun to daydream. these pictures don't fully encompass my dream kitchen...bits and parts of each could potentially create THE one. i love the color of the flooring of this one but not for floors. possibly for a back splash of some sort. it would look so pretty against dark wood floors. i think i will forever love the white/vintage white look for cabinets...

i sometimes daydream about where we'd retire. i think i'm destined to be somewhere near the coast...scott would love to be where he could ski/telemark, golf, bike year round...i'm sure i could convince him to pick up surfing too...there just something so calming about the ocean. our alarm wakes me up to the crashing sounds of waves. i guess wherever we are together will be just fine. maybe after looking at some of these pictures he'll cave and live with me forever at the beach...

...A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true...

charlie dash - fearless.

charlie gets these panic attacks when we're getting ready to leave in the mornings. he's so needy in the morning and understandably so...who wants to stay at home ALL day by themselves with nothing to do but stare at cars driving by only hoping that it's their mom or dad's pulling into the driveway...? not charlie.

so when i pulled out of the driveway this morning, scott had opened the door to leave and charlie bolted over his foot straight for under my car. we sat there in the rain for five minutes trying to coax charlie out from underneath. he doesn't understand that one roll of a tire will end his precious little life. he just knows he wants to be with me and that's that.

i LOVE that our charlie is fearless in the way he loves us but any tips on training him to fear cars? help...

acupuncture - session 1

it was all a blur, really. i first walked in and the place smelled like chinese herbal medicine. it took me back to my childhood...i remember thinking, "hal-ah-bojee (grandpa) smelled like this." i also remember seeing either my parents or someone drinking this nasty drink as a kid. they would tell me that it was super good for you and again i remember thinking, "i'll NEVER drink that in my life!" it's funny because one of my life sayings is: NEVER SAY NEVER. the jokes on me i guess...especially if i do end up having to drink that gross drink.

anyways, back to my first session. my acupuncturist advised me to not let anyone dictate my stress on getting pregnant. he said my time will come when it's right and when i'm ready. he said he would work on my ovulation and help prepare my eggs be perfect meaning not pre-mature and not too mature.

then i had my first session of needles being poked into me. it happened all so fast...the first ones were in my ears...then several along my forehead (maybe for my headaches/migraines?)...then several along my abdomen and then on my legs. he told me he had to be careful with the ones he used with me...he also smiled in a very father-like way and let me know that he used the needles he uses for his youngest patients that ranged in the years of 4-6. yayy me...not really. hahaa i'm hoping this will toughen me up but seriously, who likes needles being poked and prodded into you??

so my next session is tuesday. i will be going twice a week for the next two weeks...scott and i are ready for the next several months...whatever that may be. we know only God knows best and will answer us and fill our hearts with a joy only He can fill. He resurrected his son...He can do anything!