i've had better days...

where do i begin...so much information was given to us today that my head is still trying to process it all...

well, the best part of today was the ultrasound. our little boy is STILL a boy . his little feet are measuring in at 6 cm, we saw that he has hair (thank you JESUS!) and he is weighing in at a whole 3 pounds!! this puts him in the 46% percentile which is good! he is positioned head down...perfect for labor the nurse said...but don't come just yet little guy!

now for the facts of where i'm at with this pregnancy:
~ during the ultrasound they noticed a millimeter over of fluid in his kidney's. dr. pandipati says it is not severe at this point but will re-check this at my next ultrasound. if the fluid level continues to increase, this could mean potential issues in baby's kidney/bladder.
~ at this point, my cervix has thinned since last thursday...it has now thinned 70%. it was previously at 50%. thinning typically leads to the cervix dilating which of course signals labor. at this point, it's too early for that...
~ i am having mild contractions but they are sporadic...i need to watch for the consistency and intensity.
~ there are 4 levels of bed rest. i am on level 3...i DO NOT want to get to level 4 since that would mean i would be on hospital bed rest. i am on full bed rest until our baby comes unless something changes.
~ dr. pandipati IS concerned about pre-term labor. i will be monitored closely by him and dr. stewart. my next appointment with dr. stewart is november 8th and november 23rd with dr. pandipati.

i keep hearing..."let's try and make it to 34 weeks." basically they say they will NOT stop labor if it begins after week 34...the drugs to help develop baby is not effective after this point. did i ever mention i had a dream that i went in to labor the week of Christmas? this would put me at week 37....hmm...i wonder if these are visions and not dreams...?

for myself - i've been an emotional mess. i'll feel fine one minute and then saddened the next - by the thought of not being able to bring our baby home right away...or holding him after he's born. i can't help but think that i have not provided the BEST home for our baby to grow in...i think about the holidays coming up and how i won't be able to participate the way i've imagined. i am however, thankful for EVERYONE that has brought over yummy meals and have gone out of their way to come and visit...thank you SO much for your love for me, scott and our little baby. i tell him everyday what a lucky and blessed duck he is...