* update *

i went in yesterday for my doctor's appointment. i first had to drink this really icky glucose drink that tasted like SUPER flat SUPER syrupy orange crush. you not only have to drink this but they give you a time limit (5 minutes!). i was a champ and downed it with a quickness!! then scott and i waited in the waiting area for an hour. they need the time to pass to see how my body reacts to all the sugar. i started to feel pretty sick but passed the time by playing my recent passion on the iphone: solitaire. then miguel called me back and drew my blood (he is always the one who takes my blood...i wince every time i see him...hehee). i get the results monday...

then, it was time to see dr. stewart. we started off with the routine check up stuff: urine sample, weight (i didn't gain a pound during the week where i was beached like a whale...shocking!!), measuring my belly and my favorite...listening to my baby's heartbeat! he said the little guy is a good size just by the measurment of my belly - this is good in my mind in case he decides to come early. then he checked my cervix...the same. he said it's pre-term thinning...some women truck along past their due date with a thinning cervix. others, end up having baby early. if this is the path that they think i'm on, they'll give me a steroid shot that will boost baby's lung development. so, the next step is seeing a perinatal specialist and until then, more bed rest. dr. stewart wanted a second opinion so i have an appointment on tuesday. leaving the appointment yesterday i was pretty bummed...i feel like i am not able to take care of scott, our home and especially our baby. it's been a wave of emotions but i know He is walking with me every step of this journey...

...i'm hoping for good news both monday and tuesday...