acupuncture - last session

i went to my last session of acupuncture on thursday. he came in and had a smile on his face...then asked me: when did your cycle start...i was confused. maybe he thought i was another patient of his or he was asking about my history again. i had no idea...so i gave him a blank stare. then he looked at me and was shocked i hadn't started especially since i had had four sessions with him already.
so, the next step is to have my appointment with the RE and if the doctor wants me to assist with more acupuncture i will do so, but for now...it's the waiting game until may.
until then, i just need to relax and live stress free...is this possible for me?? maybe if i was here...

dream on.

it's funny how a car dealership will give you a WAY nicer version of your car as a loaner. if they were trying to get me to say "OOH, upgrade!!" then they have succeeded. my car that i love was having some problems so we had to take it in. they gave us a beauty...i swear, the loaner can practically drive itself! so this is the car i have for a day and a half...

scott and i met at woodburn and my love for cooking has me eyeing this pot. the outlet said they would have this color in a few months...i am excited. wouldn't this look good in my dream beach house?!

acupuncture - session 4

my fourth session was pretty much the same as the third. he treated me for my headaches as well and told me that i have some anxiety and too much tension which causes my headaches. he also told me that i don't sleep well (right on!) because i think about things too much and my body doesn't get to fully rest (right on!). he said he has a suspicion that i might have problems with my ovaries but that he would let the reproductive endocrinologist (R. E.) diagnose it. i was amazed at how much he knew by just listening to my pulse.
the next step is to meet a doctor that is just right for us. there are two in the running and i just made my first consultation with one for early may. i am so excited and nervous for it. in talking to my cousin who just had olivia and lucas, she said that you go to this R. E. and once they've helped you conceive and it's safe, you go back to your obgyn to deliver the baby...i assumed that they become your new doctor for everything. so i am glad i get to go back to dr. stewart with good news hopefully!

this weekend, my heart ached for a little one...it's time to pray some more. {via For Me}

acupuncture - session 2

yesterday i was face down on the table and he focused on my lower back and calves/shin area again. one needle that he put directly into my calf was super painful. he asked if i felt it...UH, YEAH!! anyways, i found my second time around i was able to relax much quicker and i ended up taking a nap. then, i woke up and i got real fidgety again. that's when i start to feel like i need to jump up, take out all the needles and say i'm never coming back...fortunately/unfortunately i have another appointment thursday. again, i 'm in for anything...if this helps scott and i start our little family, then doctor...please poke away! next session - thursday.

daydreams...

not that i don't love my kitchen right now...but it's always fun to daydream. these pictures don't fully encompass my dream kitchen...bits and parts of each could potentially create THE one. i love the color of the flooring of this one but not for floors. possibly for a back splash of some sort. it would look so pretty against dark wood floors. i think i will forever love the white/vintage white look for cabinets...

i sometimes daydream about where we'd retire. i think i'm destined to be somewhere near the coast...scott would love to be where he could ski/telemark, golf, bike year round...i'm sure i could convince him to pick up surfing too...there just something so calming about the ocean. our alarm wakes me up to the crashing sounds of waves. i guess wherever we are together will be just fine. maybe after looking at some of these pictures he'll cave and live with me forever at the beach...

...A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true...

charlie dash - fearless.

charlie gets these panic attacks when we're getting ready to leave in the mornings. he's so needy in the morning and understandably so...who wants to stay at home ALL day by themselves with nothing to do but stare at cars driving by only hoping that it's their mom or dad's pulling into the driveway...? not charlie.

so when i pulled out of the driveway this morning, scott had opened the door to leave and charlie bolted over his foot straight for under my car. we sat there in the rain for five minutes trying to coax charlie out from underneath. he doesn't understand that one roll of a tire will end his precious little life. he just knows he wants to be with me and that's that.

i LOVE that our charlie is fearless in the way he loves us but any tips on training him to fear cars? help...

acupuncture - session 1

it was all a blur, really. i first walked in and the place smelled like chinese herbal medicine. it took me back to my childhood...i remember thinking, "hal-ah-bojee (grandpa) smelled like this." i also remember seeing either my parents or someone drinking this nasty drink as a kid. they would tell me that it was super good for you and again i remember thinking, "i'll NEVER drink that in my life!" it's funny because one of my life sayings is: NEVER SAY NEVER. the jokes on me i guess...especially if i do end up having to drink that gross drink.

anyways, back to my first session. my acupuncturist advised me to not let anyone dictate my stress on getting pregnant. he said my time will come when it's right and when i'm ready. he said he would work on my ovulation and help prepare my eggs be perfect meaning not pre-mature and not too mature.

then i had my first session of needles being poked into me. it happened all so fast...the first ones were in my ears...then several along my forehead (maybe for my headaches/migraines?)...then several along my abdomen and then on my legs. he told me he had to be careful with the ones he used with me...he also smiled in a very father-like way and let me know that he used the needles he uses for his youngest patients that ranged in the years of 4-6. yayy me...not really. hahaa i'm hoping this will toughen me up but seriously, who likes needles being poked and prodded into you??

so my next session is tuesday. i will be going twice a week for the next two weeks...scott and i are ready for the next several months...whatever that may be. we know only God knows best and will answer us and fill our hearts with a joy only He can fill. He resurrected his son...He can do anything!